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Dream Journal....

So lately I have remembering more dreams than usual... I know I haven't mentioned this in a long time, but I have been dreaming XD I just haven't been recording them. Funny, because I really want to have another lucid dream.. Oh well... I will try to come forth once more with my dreams. Soon at least XD
I was trying to write from my phone, but it didn't let me! ): I will figure out how to fix that and I will start uploading dreams as soon as I wake up! (:
Living,
Annie♥

Turning 18...... Being in an emotional mess once again...

Last month I turned 18, and to tell you the truth... I don't feel much different... Since I am still in High School....
I feel strange though, I am 18.... I have no comment on this.... I suppose I just saw it pass by.... However, I did realize something... I realize that my life is so different from the time that I was seventeen... I have changed in so many ways, and my way of living is totally different than last year...

For the oddest reason I really want to cry right now..... I don't know why, and I guess I am back to where I started..... Just now I kinda do feel like I did back then, coming to a computer and putting every single thing I think on here. No one reads it anyway.... Damn, why I am so sad out of the blue??
Is it because I just realized that life is changing? Is it because I now know that I will never get the life that I used to have? I will never be a kid again? Life will never again be the same..? Gosh, and I am certantly not complaining about the life that I now have. Don't get me wrong, I love my life.... Up to its point... I mean come on, everyone has their problems, but seriously I do love my life. I have a great family, and an amazing boyfriend... but I still miss those days... actually to be precise, I miss the days before June 29, 2009....... Boy, where those the best days of my life or what... I have had amazing days since last Christmas, probably to top those before June 2009... but still.....

You know what I just realized? I am an emotional mess.......I cannot hold myself together right now.....

Annie.....

I've been gone for quite a while.... I am sorry

Okay, so I know that I have hardly written anything lately.... Well anything "real" at least... I mean, anything like what I used to write.... and I have no clue why.... I feel like... Hmmm... I don't know..... I have no head to write anymore... and I keep wondering why...... I have read what I used to write... and I doubt I'll be able to write like that again... Or I don't know, maybe it will just take me a very long time.... I suppose I might have unconsciously realized that virtually no one reads this, so there is no use in wasting my energy writing here. I suppose I stopped caring, but I don't want to stop caring. I want to keep writing, and this is just a theory....

My second theory is that I am just too busy to write anything at all anymore... I just don't have time, time like this at least. Because right now I am writing because I got a few minutes free out of my day, besides we are starting thanksgiving break and I am not worried about anything... I suppose that is what I get for turning 18... Hmmmm... I believe that "turning 18" will be my next topic... If I want to write anything useful. That is what I'll do... Anyway, as a High School senior it is very hard to manage time, specially with all this homework and University stuff.. Having to apply everywhere, and waiting for the acceptance letter. Gosh, now that I realize I haven't written to my Pen-Pal...lol.... I am sorry my friend... .See, gosh, senior year is really taking its' toll on me. Specially because I am editor of my school's newspaper. I have to handle so much at one time..... Oh well I will get through, hopefully by this summer I will have some time on my hands...

Okay, I know I have said this like a million times... "I will start writing again," but I am not going to say that because I have no clue if I will start writing again. I will try, that is something I can tell you. At least while we have this thanksgiving break. (:


Living,
Annie♥

Hunger Games Movie!! Finally!!!

So, I have known this for quite some time.... I mean the fact that there will be a Hunger Games movie very soon, but as the date gets closer, I just get more excited.. AHHH!!! I can't wait!! Lol. XD

Here are a few photos that I found......

I can't stop thinking about you♪♫ -Maroon 5♥

So I am in love with Adam Lavine!!! Maroon 5 just rocks!!!! XD

I have been listening to nothing but them, wait apart from a few songs that I like to listen to, Party Rock Anthem, I'm Sexy and I know it, and of course, my most favorite song lately, '5 O' Clock' (=

But anyway, I just love Maroon 5, they're songs are awesome, and I just can't stop listening to them.....
"it's not over tonight, just give me one more chance, i won't make it through the night, i won't go home without you!!" ♪♫ -I won't go home without you

I feel like lately Maroon 5 has grown, because when I used to listen to them, last year, there weren't many people that knew about them... I do not know, maybe it was just me... Lol.

"you're such a flirt, i know you heard.... amazing feelings that I have for you, I close my eyes when I'm alone, I want to give you something better" -Kiwi

"I'm sick of picking the pieces, of second guessing the reasons, why you don't trust me, why must we do this to one another, we are just passionate lovers, with trouble under the covers.... i just need a little of your time, a little of your time... " -A little of your time

I had to put those on there, because I was listening to Maroon 5 as I wrote this. Haha, I know. I just had to. That's how much I love Maroon 5. How happy I'd be if I could see them in concert. (=

"Please don't leave, stay in bed, touch my body instead!" -Little of your time, hahaha this line is awesome! XD

"Just shoot for the stars, if it feels right, and aim for my heart.... I swear I'll behave.....you wanna control, I put on the show...... and it goes like this, take me by the tongue and i know you, kiss me till you're drunk and I'll show you, I got the moves like Jagger!" -Moves like Jagger

-Annie♥

It's always good to know your neighbors!

This is not her by the way.

I am not sure... but I believe that my neighbor is Vietnamese... well if she is not Vietnamese, she is Asian... anyway... I have slowly figured out that she a very nice lady. She is not the only one that lives in her house though, her husband is there too, but he is much more serious.. Anyway, I have a point, I think...

I have never spoken to this lady, I believe it is because she doesn't speak English. I am pretty sure that their kids are the ones that do all the talking when they pay the rent... But the kids don't live with their parents... This makes me sad... because it feels to me that they just put their parents there because they didn't want to deal with them any longer.. but in a way I understand exactly how that is, because my dad works at a senior living and there I see that many people come and leave their parents because they can no longer deal with them.
(one quick correction, according to my sister the lady does speak English, because she talked to her once... Oh well.... I guess she hasn't wanted to talk to me)

Once again, this is not her.

She is a very nice lady, and I know that because of the few instances when we have crossed paths. Multiple times I have seen her back from her evening walk, and now she smiles at me. All the time. Even when my boyfriend is over at my house.. Haha, yeah I know... Even then she is nice, looks at me and smiles. Of course, I always smile at her.... then she walks away....every single time that this moment happens it's the exact same way, we cross paths, smile at each other, and she walks away, as so do I.

Another thing that I'd like to say, is that her smile is beautiful. It always leaves a warm feeling inside, and its nice. Knowing that I have her smile, because I know that it's genuine.

Well.. I know that this would be my second post on "elderly people." But I like to talk about them, because I know they are so nice. However, don't trust old people just because I talked about how they're nice. Because I know that you can't trust anyone. Unless they're your neighbors and you've known them for a while.. In my case many many months.. Lol..

Anyway, that is all I have to say for today...

Always,
Annie♥