My perfect Future

So... I meant to write about this a very long time ago... but as you can imagine, well yeah I forgot...... Oh well, that is why I am writing about it now.. Duh!!! ^o^

So this is a post basically about me! Yes, I am going to be selfish and just talk about me! What I want! and my dreams.....(Not those...nope... not the usual night dreams^o^)
I also know that it is a really big possibility that most of these dreams will not come true, but that does not mean that I won't try, and that neither should you, if you have a dream follow through, don't wake up only because everything starts looking like a nightmare, keep dreaming because at the end you might find that it has a good ending.

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Well the first thing I see in my future is a successful career. As a journalist most likely, but I also really want to write a couple books. I don't know, but I have always had that dream, to write a book, I don't care if it isn't a bestseller, I just want it out there. Oh, and as a Journalist, well I know it is too much to ask for, but I want to work for the New York Times, if not for them, for someone in New York. I just want to be able to live there. I want to enjoy that city. Even though I have heard that it will be underwater if the whole 2012 thing goes through. Who cares about that though?

Another thing that I find important is the person with whom I am going to spend the rest of my life with. I know that once you hear what I am going to tell you, which is just what I want, not what anyone else wants, you'll think I am so selfish. Wait, have I said that before?
Well, I really want a family, I want children, and I really don't want to die alone. That is one of the things I am really scared of, to die without anyone, knowing that no one will go to my funeral.. I know that it might sound weird, or just like why is she asking this if she is only 17? Well, it is never too early to start thinking about things like these. Sometimes all I think about is, what if when I am old, I don't have anyone? I am afraid of ending up ALONE....... I think this scares me a million times more than thinking about 2012. :-(

I might be switching subject way too quick, but I really don't want to talk about a life 50 years away, when I could be thinking about 10 years from now. That would mean, like talking about my perfect person. My other half, the love of my life, my prince charming, my knight, my hero, my... oh you know exactly who I am talking about. I have actually thought about him way too much. I know that he might not exist, but it is always nice to dream right. My perfect guy is a caring person, someone who cares about what I think and who wants to know how I feel. Who wants to share his feelings, and lets me care for him. Someone that I could feel comfortable with, and that lets me know that he feels the exact same way. Someone who is not afraid to love me, and shows me how much he does. Someone that accepts my way of loving, that appreciates the way I love him and returns the love. :-) Someone who will let me protect him, and will return the favor by protecting me. Someone who won't let anything hurt me. Someone who is funny, makes me laugh when I am at the edge of crying. Also, in a weird way... someone like me... not because of the previous qualities, but as in personality, because we should have something in common, right? Someone who is not always nice, but not always rude, one who isn't perfect. Well I believe that this list can go on and on.... You don't want to read what I want, because who cares about me, if I find this person, that will be one thing, and I am not saying that I won't love a person without these qualities, because I will, I swear, I will with all my heart...  I want to fall in love regardless.... Don't you??

Annie♥